"All that you can do is, you can see what is there, first of all, you do not know what is there. Because all the years you have been running away from it, see everywhere you find only the self. So you come to know, now there is an indirect way of knowing, but then to actually look at it is painful.. To look at your envious thoughts, your jealous thoughts, your fearful thoughts, your anxious thoughts, is not such a good experience.
That all the time you are running away from it. That is the only problem which man has got. So, because we are telling you, look, turn around, confront it, look at it, then may be you will say let me try. Initially it could be difficult, but then you will soon realize it is very tempting. It is very nice to see, as you see your darker side, your negative side, strangely you will stop condemning, You will know that is true; along with that comes joy also and with that joy you will soon find that there is absence of conflict. Not that your negative side has gone, not that you cease to be jealous, cease to be angry, cease to be fearful, no no no no not those things. You are for the first time in your life able to say, "Yes I am this I am not ashamed of it that is the only truth, I am being truthful. That is when you have taken the first step in spirituality that is also the last step, there after everything is automatic. No guru is required, no teaching is required, it is all automatic. You think there is some thing you can do to get there. There is nothing you can do to get there. If you are a jealous person, you are not going to become non jealous. If you are fearful person, you are not going to become courageous like the lion. If you are a depressed person, you are not going to go into euphoria. You cannot change, try as you might, you cannot change. So what is the teaching here. The teaching says you cannot change, and there is no need to change, because you have been designed like that, you are that, that is all that is the only teaching. Therefore you accept, "Aa Ah! I cannot change, what is there to do, nothing to do.. There is nothing wrong like that, I have been designed like that." You did not design yourself, God designed you like that, he has some purpose in designing you. So there is complete acceptance, when you accept what is there, that is meditation, that is SADHANA.